I am listening to Schubert, reading about Mozart & Beethoven and staring at MS Subbalakshmi's portraits alongside writing this post. At this moment I am reminded of all those times when I thought that music would always be my parallel indulgence as I did something else for a living. My Guru (music teacher) asked me. "Why don't you take up BA or something similarly light? It will help you focus on your music more."

"I can manage engineering and music together." I replied.

This was 1999. I wish I had listened to somebody then. I wish I had met someone who had beautiful thoughts of freedom, pride of an imaginative mind and the pleasure of enjoying what they had. I wish success wasn't my only source of inspiration. I wish I didn't judge people by their ability to solve mathematical problems; I wish I didn't judge the lives of those travelling with their violins, guitars and their voice. I wish I had the vision to look into the fulfilment that my own talent could give me and I wish I didn't have the overconfidence of letting all my talents flourish in all circumstances. I wish I could see the wonderful world in my heart.

Today I have the knowledge, the skills and the ability to jump and learn anything I truly want. However, I am struggling between multiple tabs of political articles, Coursera videos and registration websites. I have so many great things to learn and so much time at hand that I am worried that I actually have nothing.

Music - I wish I had kept your notes.